I woke up in the wee small hours of the morning this morning and had to puzzle over some new data that I didn't have until yesterday. A few days back, I discovered this "Feedburner" that I could implement for my blog. Do I know what it is? No. But I burned my feed. (That was the cliff I jumped off of. Boy, that was exciting! Will my blog go up in flames? Will my computer go up in flames? Did I just see a spark? Do I know what I did even though I did it? No. And it reminded me of when I submitted myself to Christ, not knowing what in the world I was doing, but knowing it was better than where I was, sort of like the Israelites going through the Red Sea.) Still, I poked around the site and found to my amazement that it says I have 13 subscribers to my blog as of yesterday. Now I know I'm a small potato in the land of big spuds, and some people have hundreds or thousands of subscribers, but my expectations in that regard are very small. I write because I have to. I write in hopes that people might know the greatness of my God. I write to sort out my thoughts. But I don't write thinking that many people will want to come back and know what I said just lately. Wow, 13's quite a lot!
The frustrating thing is that Sitemeter (through which this non-techy writer thought she had stumbled upon a nifty piece of technology), tells me that I have 3 subscribers. That makes more sense to me: Stacia, Katie, and Lisa. I know them, they know me, and they subscribe because they're nice. I've enjoyed seeing a little window into who comes to my blog: mostly strangers who google and happen upon it from all over the world and mostly all over the U.S. I get little vague clues of information about what draws them here, and that is all. I'm too cheap to buy the enhanced version which would tell me more, though that would be nice.
There was a time when I was writing things in response to some issues I had with an organization I belonged to--I won't get more specific--and it was fun to watch the Sitemeter activity bounce all over the place, because I know people were reading it who I wanted to have read it. That was when my readership went up to its heights for that while. Then it became subdued as they became disinterested, and my exposure is as far as I know mainly to strangers who know nothing about me except the one page that most of them visit before they go on to something else. Still, the visits to my blog are at a high, almost--somehow at Christmas time many people had the time and interest to come visit more than at any time before or since. I can't really explain it, except I did have a couple of blogs about Christmas that drew some limited response.
Thing is, I thought that Sitemeter was thorough and I knew enough to be happy. But to think I have 13 subscribers--it leaves me reaching for a bath towel. Who's watching me?! I have to learn this Feedburner's purposes and whether their definition of subscriber is the same as Sitemeter's is the same as mine. Weird to think 13 people know me so well as to subscribe, and I have no idea who they--who YOU--are. Well, I invite you in. You know about me and I know nothing about you, but you are welcome. Enjoy what I have to say, if you will. I'm flattered by your interest! May God bless you somehow through my writings. And remember, I do have a nice little feature where you can leave a comment. I'd love to hear from you! And now, if you don't mind, I think I'll go back to bed.